Tuesday, July 24, 2012

and life changes again...

life is weird. but i think that's for the best. life has a way of waking you up and pointing you in a new direction...even when you thought you were awake and moving in a great direction. 
i was laid off at work over a week ago.
kind of a bummer. 
i had tears welling up in my eyes as the words were said, "the time has come for us to let you go."
my poor dad. yes, my dad. he was my boss. he had to lay me off. tough spot to be in for both of us.
to be honest, i had been wanting to quit for a while but i just couldn't justify it.
we needed the money.
we NEEDED the insurance. blessed insurance.
but as i thought about what had just happened, i felt hopeful. 
encouraged even.
everything will be fine, i kept thinking. and not in that 'i need to tell myself this so i don't have a panic attack kind of way.' 
i truly believe it will be fine.
don't get me wrong, i had a few days of complete misery. i was way more emotional about this change than i thought i would be. the older i get, the more emotional i seem to be getting.
however, because of that overriding feeling i have that everything will be okay, i'm optimistic. 
i'm positive. 
i'm motivated.
you know what i did yesterday? i took my kids to the water park. it was a monday and i didn't have to work. so we had ourselves a bit of summer fun. sun, lazy rivers, water slides and insane wedgies from those slides. heaven. 
i still remember how to be a fun mom. 
and while i'm casually looking for a job that will work for my schedule as a mom, i'm gonna live up this time that i have to be a full time mommy again. it's really the only job i've ever wanted and valued. 
oh, and then there's my homemaker 'to do' list that's been starring me in the face for over two years every morning that i've left for work. you know, like painting, diy projects, learning new skills, baking even more, helping izzy with all of her pre-school tasks, spending more time focusing on mark...the list goes on. 
so now i'm going to do those things. i've already started. and i've love it. 
the lack of money for a bit is going to be a challenge...but it's not an unfamiliar one to me. we've dealt with it before and we can do it again. 
we will be fine. 
actually, we will be great!

Monday, July 09, 2012

family history found among the trees

our camping spot was picked with a purpose. 
we went to fish lake here in utah. 
as i mentioned before, mark's grandpa used to herd cattle in that area. 
his name was harvey williams. and he would tag trees with his name and face as he herded. 
when mark was growing up, his family would camp in that area and tagged a few trees of their own. now it was time for the grandkids and wives to add their names. 
it was a bit of a hike to get to the specific grove of trees. but i will admit, it was the highlight of the trip for me. my kids felt like they were explorers and got a kick out of crossing over water and climbing over fallen trees. and it was great to see mark and his family remembering the past and enjoying that time together. 
my brother in law, aaron, was our photographer for the trek. i love every one of these pictures. i'm glad that we were able to capture that moment. 
ready? there's a lot...

it's hard to read but it says david 83. david is mark's middle brother. he would've been two years old on that trip.

this is their grandpa harvey's tag.

before we left camp, we took a few family pictures. 

bottom row left to right, in relation to mark: youngest brother aaron holding scooby, dad brent, mom janie, nephew caleb, brother david, sister in law lis and nephew roman. and the top row should look familiar.

all the williams grandkids
i'm glad we were able to participate in that experience as a family. it'll be fun to go back when the kids are older and check out our names carved into the trees.

Friday, July 06, 2012

camping williams style

last weekend we went camping. 
yes, camping. 
yes, i went. 
i'm not a camper.
i'm pretty sure everyone who knows me is very familiar with that fact.
camping isn't my idea of a vacation.
not. at. all
my family really wanted me to go. and the camping spot was going to be in the same area where mark's grandpa used to herd cattle. this was a family history trip. more on this later.
okay, okay...so i went.
and i will admit, i had a little fun. 
the trip didn't start out well. 
we got there really late at night and had to set up in the dark. 
also, liv was sick from the altitude. 
like whenever she moved she thought she was going to throw up. 
poor girl. 
thankfully, she adjusted and was able to enjoy more camping than not.
i was determined here, people! those little hiccups weren't going to throw me off. 
and i'm glad they didn't. 
i'm not going to say that i'll be camping again anytime soon but it was better than i thought.
hanging out with my kids, watching mark enjoy fishing with his dad, catching up on my magazine reading, eating almost the entire bowl of caramel popcorn all by myself (camping food is pretty tasty!) and taking an adventurous hike with the whole gang (that will come later too) are just a few highlights.
camping: not awesome, not so bad either.

 i came home sunburned, filthy and exhausted. i think i did camping the right way.